Morning

Sorry i havent posted in a day but things have happened. My prediction came true. I am now single. However, im the one that broke things off. I didnt understand how he could ask me back out just to ignore me and regret it. I couldnt take it so pulled the plug which did release some stress. But i still miss him. Hes irritating as fuck but still. Plus i knew that some people were were getting annoyed with my constant complaining so i felt like i had to. But i guess it was worth it. I barely ate this week so i shall try to go and make breakfast. Hope i can keep it down. Hope everyone has a good day/weekend.

-Angry Girl

Good Morning ,Bad Morning

I think i woke up to a panic attack this morning. My heart was racing and i felt a little numb. I hate that feeling of not having control of your own body. I feel like a puppet. "Ok puppet of mine have a panic attack now.....and now....and now....oh look something sharp!" Etc etc. apparently now when i rock back and forth im unaware of it. Im usually aware of it after a minute of doing it but yesterday in school my friend said i was rocking back and forth slowly looking like a murderer and i was shocked (kinda). I dont know whats gonna happen today. But i know damn well that i will find out why my bf has been ignoring me. Me without answers is like a tiger without a cage. I go insane. But whatever. Hopefully today goes well and i get my answers. Ill update later after school. Enjoy your day boys and girls.

-Angry Girl

Ignoring Ignorance.

I dont know how to feel as of now. He has been ignoring since yeaterday and we got back together on monday. Was I imagining it all? Feels like it. I dont recall anything bad happening after we fixed our issues. However, he doesnt really tell me whats wrong anyways. He doesnt trust me. His dumb ex cheats on him and HE doesnt trust ME. I understand his trust issues but i've been cheated on before. its not fun and i would never inflict that upon someone else. I wish he trusted me more. Give me a little credit for actually trying to please him. I dont complain to him, i give him the freedom he needs and i havent cut myself in 2 weeks because i promised him i wouldnt. I feel like im failing as a girlfriend. I want to be perfect for him and show him that im not like his ex but hes not budging. I have no idea what else to do. Ill try talking to him tomorrow. hopefully he wont ignore me though. I have a bad feeling. Im hoping that i dont return home single but i feel like its gonna happen eventually. I predict that ill be single by friday. How sad. i used to bet on his old half ass relationships and now im technically betting on my own. So fun (cue sarcasm). Fingers crossed boys and girls. i know mine are.

-Angry Girl